Goal Update: Nostalgia and Anger

1writingThe past few days, I have spent some time in the tiny sanctuary that is now my writing folder. It’s all messy and there are 129847130532 stories that are lingering and incomplete. Honestly, the thought that so many stories have been left untold completely pisses me off. I really want to get rid of this stigma of never finishing anything I start. Some of the stuff I have written is just for fun and I don’t feel bad about leaving it to the side. It was just shameless amusement and there is nothing wrong with that. It’s nice to go back and see what antics and shenanigans I was up to back then (Mac x Microsoft fanfic, anyone??).

What bugs me, however, are the chapters stories that I start but never write/complete. I have so many started stories, whole worlds planned, the entire flow of the story worked out but I – for some bloody reason – can’t bring myself to write the stupid thing. I get stuck; that’s a pathetic feeling. I want to be able to finally push myself to get back into these. I realize that most stories haven’t been written at all and the only thing that needs to be done is actually take the time to write them. Others, however, have already been published and have been awaiting updates for over a year – Looking at you, Cross My Heart [FF.net/AO3].

So I am gonna start trying to work at these stories again. They might just be fanfiction but a story is still a story and I have very clear signs that people want to see this story continued.

I’m tired of letting people down when it comes to my writing. I want to become a writer that is consistent and well recognized for creating well organised stories. Sure, I still have my bad habits that I need to work on but I will never improve them if all I do is twiddle my thumbs.


— ☆ Emrys


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