Goal Update: A Date With Destiny

There was one game that I forgot to add to my video game list but it was one that I probably forgot on purpose – Destiny. Let me just say this right up front: I am really, truly horrible at FPS games. I can’t aim worth shit and so I never get very far in shooter games. I tried this one out, made it through the tutorial and then dropped it like a sack of potatoes.

That being said, I recently was chattering with a lovely lady who inspired me to give it another go.

Needless to say, I am still not all that great at it and I never expected to be but here is the part that surprised me – I’m actually getting better at it. Everyone always told me that the only way to get better at shooters is to keep playing them and while I know, logically, that is the case, I could never muster up the energy to bother trying. I never found any real enjoyment out of FPS games. For me, I like plot, character development, leveling up and learning about the dynamics of your team. This is why I favour RPGs. I like games with puzzles and hoarding collecting/completion features.

Destiny gives me a bit of that; from what I have seen so far, anyway. There is a leveling up feature! Which I like because it gives me a sense of accomplishment despite the fact that my aim hasn’t really improved. I like feeling like I can make a character my own so even something as simple as swapping out armor and choosing the right gun type for me makes the game just a little more enjoyable.

So while I don’t exactly see myself sitting down to marathon 20 hours of Destiny play, I can see myself taking an hour here and there to take another crack at it. There are a handful of FPS games that I actually DO want to play coughBioshockcough so maybe playing through some more of Destiny will get me the right skill set. So long as I can keep mowing down the bad guys, that’s all I really need!

— ☆ Emrys


Goal Update: Nostalgia and Anger

1writingThe past few days, I have spent some time in the tiny sanctuary that is now my writing folder. It’s all messy and there are 129847130532 stories that are lingering and incomplete. Honestly, the thought that so many stories have been left untold completely pisses me off. I really want to get rid of this stigma of never finishing anything I start. Some of the stuff I have written is just for fun and I don’t feel bad about leaving it to the side. It was just shameless amusement and there is nothing wrong with that. It’s nice to go back and see what antics and shenanigans I was up to back then (Mac x Microsoft fanfic, anyone??).

What bugs me, however, are the chapters stories that I start but never write/complete. I have so many started stories, whole worlds planned, the entire flow of the story worked out but I – for some bloody reason – can’t bring myself to write the stupid thing. I get stuck; that’s a pathetic feeling. I want to be able to finally push myself to get back into these. I realize that most stories haven’t been written at all and the only thing that needs to be done is actually take the time to write them. Others, however, have already been published and have been awaiting updates for over a year – Looking at you, Cross My Heart [FF.net/AO3].

So I am gonna start trying to work at these stories again. They might just be fanfiction but a story is still a story and I have very clear signs that people want to see this story continued.

I’m tired of letting people down when it comes to my writing. I want to become a writer that is consistent and well recognized for creating well organised stories. Sure, I still have my bad habits that I need to work on but I will never improve them if all I do is twiddle my thumbs.


— ☆ Emrys

Goal Update: Counterfeit Love

1webdesignI am really bad at doing my goals in the order that I originally set myself out for D| Truly, truly awful. I promised myself that I would update the sites that I currently have running right now before I go ahead and start on anything do and what does Emrys do? That’s right. Create an entirely new website. Well, I am a bit annoyed at myself but considering it came out really well, I can’t be too upset. I am very proud of it! I said I would try to lean away from the grey/bright colour scheme but its just so aesthetically pleasing! I can’t resist

Counterfeit Love: a dating sim directory

Well, here it is! I had originally wanted to make a small, one page sort of directory for when I did the Valentine’s Day challenge with my buddies– oh my god, I never affiliated with those in the end, did I? GOD I SUCK AT THIS. Okay, well, the point is that originally I just wanted a small site to link them all too but instead it blew up into a full directory, complete with join form and categories so plenty of people can add their future otome/bishoujo/yuri/yaoi dating sim tributes 😀

— ☆ Emrys